O hay there beautiful people! I'm Gemma, 18. living in good ol' rainy England! from the age of four years old, my mum new i was going to be a strange one.. one stick short of a lolli.. i guess was right. since the age of 11, i've been on a complete 'Self destruct' as people like to call it. and suffering through various mental health shenanigans.. BPD, depression, ridiculous manic episodes, self harm, suicide attempts, addictions, a ridiculous amount of hospital admissions, inpatient in Child and adolescent psychiatric units, adult psychiatric units, i've always from a young age had disordered eating.. but over the last year and a half now, Anorexia/Bulimia has really just completely stole my life from me. I have been through an awful amount of horrific events in my life, name it.. im pretty much done it, or seen it or been there.. im an open book. ask me anything. - so basically, this is my space to rant, and scream, where no one from the 'crappy real world' can see.
i'm here if anyone needs me, 'cause i believe everyone needs someone...
OH YEAH... i forgot to mention... i'm a crazy mother fucking hippy ><
The rape joke is that you were eight.
The rape joke is that at the time,
you didn’t know people had sex to express love.
The rape joke is that the only other person
who’d seen you naked was your mom.
The rape joke is that he called you ‘beautiful’ first.
The rape joke is that he held your hands together
and told you to ‘try harder’ when you struggled.
The rape joke is that you believed him
when he told you were overreacting.
The rape joke is that your grandma
called him a nice boy and asked him to stay for dinner.
The rape joke is that he winked at you
when you apologized to your parents for not coming
downstairs the first time you were called.
The rape joke is that his friends
high-fived him for “getting some.”
The rape joke is that you still don’t feel like
you’ve regrown the pieces he stole.
The rape joke is that he was conceived when his
dad slapped himself into his snoring mother.
The rape joke is that her friends told her
she was lucky someone wanted her.
The rape joke is that each year in the United States,
32,000 other women’s bellies
ripen with life against their will.
The rape joke is that he never learned
to touch without scarring.
The rape joke is that your classmate thinks
‘have you seen what asses look like in yoga pants?’
is an argument.
The rape joke is your new boyfriend kissing
you and telling you he ‘raped’ his math test.
The rape joke is that ‘Why are girls so scared of rape? Y’all should feel pride that a guy risked his life in jail just to fuck you’
is a popular Tweet right now.
The rape joke is that you wake up to
the memory of him laughing,
“now that wasn’t so bad, was it?”
The rape joke is that it’s been twelve years and
you still quiver when someone touches you.
The rape joke is that he hasn’t stopped laughing.
The rape joke is that you forgot how to.